Hi ! Im really obsessed with your account, its quite relevant. I have something I would literally be so grateful for, its been bothering me for years but I only understood it this week. I have old wounds in me from my childhood (my dad would be abusive and all that) so my question is, do you know how to heal them? Its something like tapping in the subconscious but its crazy hard as I know.. Have a lovely day xx
Aw well thank you, glad you like the blog!
It definitely makes sense that your childhood issues with your father are coming up during retrograde for you to release and heal. I’m sorry you had to go through that…Family currents all relate back to the Root Chakra and our connection with the Earth. Especially due to the abuse i would imagine this is generating around some of your lower chakras more than likely root and sacral to be specific. Although if the root is out of balance it can put our entire energy body out of alignment. Really this comes into the heart as well, i’m sure there is a lot of anger and lack of forgiveness for what has happened, along with various other emotions given whatever happened. However there is a reason we must not cling to our past, because our past is over. Sometimes the past can hurt but you can either run from it or learn from it.
I believe everyone has a story deep down regardless if we see eye to eye with them, maybe your father used to be beaten as a child himself from his own parents and those before him? So it’s possible that is only conditioning he knows or perhaps it’s something stemming from within him internally. Ultimately you need to see that this has nothing to do with you deep down, it’s just the way he unfortunately vented. I don’t believe anyone should have to resort to violence to express themselves but regardless of what happened you have to do what is best for you, which includes finding compassion for the past despite what happened through forgiveness.
That is the only way to truly heal by seeing that the past is over for a reason. The more we dwell in the past, the more we are cycling old emotional wounds leading to things we need to heal and release. You are right it is about the subconscious but it’s also about your thought process around the issue. Given this is a Root issue, i’m sure this has caused problems within your family and given you unstable roots growing up. Our Root chakra is the demon of fear and also insecurity. When we don’t feel rooted into the earth, we feel unstable and insecure about our surroundings, our home life and even our family. To heal the root, you need to see that you are secure within yourself, you are connected to others, and you are grounded within the Earth eternally. When the root is imbalanced it can generate it many forms, via dissociation, relationship issues, family issues, trouble financially, eatting disorders, bad immune response, etc.
I feel this also connects to nurturing and feeling the lack of nurture when you were growing up. To heal this you need to find that inner nurturing and security again within you this will help you the most. Along with releasing the anger and hurt you feel about your father, easier said than done i’m sure but this is really what it comes down to, you need to see you can get past this but it has to come from a very nurturing place within you. Grounding our Root is sacred to our well-being. <3
Here’s some info on blockages of the Root:
Hope this helps you