This full moon feels like it is all about Change, Inner and External it’s about a deep healing encompassing the earth. It’s not only about opening doors but learning to see we are those Doors themselves. This week i had a very healing experience, I went to see my favorite musician at the chicago theatre and we also tripped on Lsd a few days after. I don’t trip a lot anymore due to having a child so this was a special opportunity for us. At the concert she played one of my favorite songs called winter and during the lyrics “when you gonna make up your mind when you gonna love you as much as I do” It was like a wave of pure clarity washed over me and i instead heard the words “care”. I felt those around me, there was a couple fighting a few seats ahead of us and it just got me thinking why don’t we care enough about others? I mean that is what life is really about, it’s about loving ourselves and loving those around us. Why don’t we love ourselves as much as our lover or vice versa, why do we feel the need to excessively argue,fight, belittle, degrade people over and over i see this on facebook but why? When i see it like this, i see that people are not realizing they are merely arguing with themselves, what would happen if we did step out of that box and really listened to people? Instead of talking or thinking over them, what if we truthfully looked them in the eyes and listened to their soul as they talked, how would we as a society operate differently? It’s about listening to other’s frequencies, when there is a medium of distance between that frequency such as fb or even tumblr if we don’t raise our vibrations to a higher level of compassion by listening to their words, we will invoke the opposite and feed our egos. That is why i’ve come to realize how entirely draining facebook is, it’s just a bunch of people spewing their ego guts out but instead of people listening to them, most people are doing the opposite, arguing, fighting, belittling, degrading them. It is everywhere. Why do we as a society feel the need to do this?
Then fast forward to my trip which was an entirely healing experience in another way. I won’t go entirely into the details but Lsd for me is like a memory relapse. It’s time traveling through your memories to either a. work out your problems or b. get lost in your memories(blackhole thinking). Had i never had an ego death experience prior to Lsd i probably wouldn’t of had this perspective but goes to show you i like to do things backwards. Anyway, it got me to thinking about frequencies a lot and my mom especially and all Mothers. How we as a whole are encompassed by the Archetypal Mother Goddess of Earth who is the divine creator and we are her co-creators. I saw demons of my past, points of understanding even back when i was a child and how that shaped my awakening today. I also saw the beauty of Mother’s love and how every one has a mother, that gives them this gift the gift of creating from love. Your mom, my mom, Mother earth, everyone’s mom gives them this gift of creating and the father well the father is the masculine force, the material reality. Your mom gives you the tool to create but your father he gives you the will of action to be in Material reality. I saw how we all help heal eachother, every day with our words, our actions and our feelings towards other frequencies. How life really is magical, deep down. I remember making love to my lover and feeling us transform into two star clusters entirely merging together as one. I looked into his eyes and i saw the milkyway i saw love like i’ve never seen anything in my life. It brought me back to teh concert which it’s like why aren’t we more caring towards others? Isnt the best moments in life when we are happy and loving eachother? Why is it so hard to care? As we are all one why can’t we see the mirror? The veil is all around us, the veil is down and we have ascended. We are all ascended, some more conscious of it than others but whenever you are down, lost, alone, stuck realize it is not about the destination.
I always get this question, how do i awaken and ascend? Ascension is a way of life, it is a journey into the heart and soul of yourself projected into others. It is a nexus of understanding your memories are like an eencyclopediathat you can tap into and explore. Your mind is an infinite nexus that is awakening and learning every single day of your life. We have all ascended, we do it all the time, right now. We are always creating otherwise there wouldn’t be this, what is all around us, the earth, your room, your friends, your love, your family. We are one gargantuan star family. So don’t EVER feel discouraged that you aren’t good enough, you aren’t smart enough, you aren’t awakened enough because we all are, its our past, our present and our future. It’s in our memories. It’s always in our memories, the answers are inside of you because the entire infinite universe lives inside of you. Your ego is merely a tool, a teacher into this nexus. It’s about truly embracing the beauty of the present because this is where we are, eternally alive in the present. Let go of the past but don’t forget what it has taught you.
The Moon is all about showing us this, we are all on this journey together we have a choice to act from compassion or to act from hate. The choice is yours. The Moon is here to show us, that the ripple is here, the ripple is us, the ripple is our consciousness evolving and ascending each and every day. we are always releasing, we are always healing, we are healing eachother and that to me is truly a powerful thing. When you’re in such a deep state of traveling inside your memories, you know what is the most powerful feeling of comfort. love. pure unconditional love. I saw that we all need to care more, we are here for eachother. We are everywhere. We’re the neighbor across the street, we’re your grandmother, we’re your mother, we’re the earth, we’re even that guy you can’t stand because he broke your heart or that girl who talks shit about you to invoke drama, we are everywhere. And i guess i decided to share this story because it just made me feel so humbled, truly humbled to the point of tears how sacred life truly is deep down. There are so many people out there struggling, we don’t know their story, i mean we go to a department store and we all do our shopping and go home, no one talks to one another, we rarely ever take the risk of stepping outside of our comfort zone.
It’s the same for so many others, in that state of mind, i saw my mom’s energy, now my mom and i are like polar opposite but i saw her struggles, she was molested by her father and it has haunted her life, she lives in constant fear of everything and i vowed to myself if i truly had the power to heal people i would want to make my mom happy again. And that just really struck me because there are so many people who have these types of things happen to them, we all have our own story and what i found so humbling about that experience was i realized how much she has protected me from harms way because of the fear. Mother’s love is powerful. It showed me that we all have our own story and we don’t always know what is on the other side of that story until we change our perspective. It was humbling to me because it made me want to reach out to others in the same way you guys reach out to me to be open to helping heal others by listening. Perspective is truly everything.
How can we even help the earth, until we start to truly listen to others? The more we seclude ourselves from the world and it’s people the more we are still boxing our consciousness in. It’s about the ripple effect. You are helping others every day maybe you’re not even conscious of it but you are. You are powerful as a person living and breathing, that is what is so beautiful about it. You are living breathing frequencies of sound, rippling out in waves to others. What we think we become, positive thoughts go a long way into understanding not only ourselves but those around us. If you can’t do anything for humanity at the very least pay it forward, in whatever way you can, even a simple smile or helping someone hold the door goes a long way. Why must we hate when we are meant to care, what must we fear when we are meant to love. forever and eternally.
This moon is showing us we are our past, present and future, we are ascended beings, we are light and darkness, we are memories, life is one big huge memory composed of music and love. We all sing different songs but when we start putting the music together by caring and listening we create a harmony as one.
Sorry for writing a book, some things just need to be said. 🙂
Never be afraid to tell your own stories. For your stories are made of who you truly are, memories of love.
Sending love to you all <3