recently, my step-grand mother passed away. I did not know her very well or spend much time with her in my childhood. I know that she never felt quite accepted by anyone in my immediate family because my biological grandmother had been so dearly loved before being defeated by lung cancer when I was 2. nobody called her grandma. I did once by accident and she was tickled pink. on the day she died, I burned a sacred heart of jesus candle for her and set up a crystal altar. the candle burned over the weekend because I forgot to put it out before I left town.
in the dream, she was alive. I can’t remember the details exactly but I was at my job, a clothing store, and I was very distressed, and I was picking out a dress for her, I think. I was aware that she was dying and that she was ALONE. I felt guilt. and next thing, I was in a room with her. she was covered entirely by a blanket and motionless on a cot. I became terrified she had gone, and pulled the blanket back to find she was wearing a dress that I had been looking at moments earlier. it was white, long sleeved, with big red and pink flowers printed in some spots. I knew it was a dress for a teenager, though. the thought crossed my mind. I grasped her hand and squeezed, trying to will her to wake up. I began to cry. I felt so sad. she awoke, and turned to look at me. I asked nervously, “do you even like the dress? should I take it back?” and she responded, “I would have preferred the red and gold.”
I didn’t know how she had even known there was a red and gold version of the same dress. and that is where the dream ended. it’s been about a month since she died. I’ve done my share of dream interpretation in the past and I’m just not sure what to do with this one. usually I get some kind of intuition about what might be going on..it’s been popping back into my head at random times, but I’m still stumped. so anyway, whatever insight you might have is greatly appreciated. <3 I love your blog and have been following you for I guess two years now! it’s been really neat reading your posts, which always show up at the exact right time. (: love and light to ya sis <3 <3 <3
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This one intrigued me so i’ve been pondering on it, there are a couple things that stand out to me. I think it’s very possible she was visiting you, it could of been something like a subconscious message to you. The dress part is what really seems to stick out to me. White always symbolizes purity, angelic energy, or innocence where as the red implies passion, power, courage, our roots. The gold implies Spirituality, Ascension, the golden path, the golden child, Gold is one of the highest levels of Alchemy, turning base metals into gold. So interesting choice of colors for the dream.
The fact that she came *back* to life reminds me of resurrection and rebirth since this is your dream i see it as you’re entering into a different cycle of your life, perhaps deep change is coming and she’s kinda like a gateway messenger from your dreams. People can do that, like i remember this man came into my dream named ibis and as soon as i woke up i knew i was going to give birth that week. It’s about that “trigger” there is a reason this dream is haunting you, that’s why i feel like she was more of a messenger or vistor rather than just a symbolic version of you. Since she is also much older, she could be seen as the archetype of the Crone, the wise woman. This would also symbolize a end of a cycle in your life. The Crone also enables the rite of passage into wisdom, freedom and personal power.
Also the dress can be more symbolic in a sense, as all dreams are subconscious symbols, you were giving her a new dress, giving yourself a “change of attire” giving yourself a change in appearance and meaning.
In general i see this dream as a symbol of rebirth and resurrection. The turning of the ages, the turning of time, the completion of a cycle within your life. She just served as a messenger to tell you about this. When someone resurrects themselves within a dream, it’s a sign of spiritual progress, rebirth, infinity. It means an awakening is coming….
Very good symbol to have within your dream 🙂
I hope this helps you
sending love <3