Questioning my beliefs

hey there,
I’ve been following your blog for a while now, and you have such a beautiful understanding of what’s going on, not only on a 3rd dimensional standpoint, but from a cosmic viewpoint as well. anyway, I am really struggling at the moment. I awakened on November 6th 2011, and I have grown so much spiritually, intellectually, and emotionally in the past year. most of my family, is still in a deep sleep. which is discouraging from time to time. but what I’m really having problems with is my mother. she is physically and mentally abusive. I have dealt with her behavior for years without much trouble. But since my awakening, it has been so so so hard to stay positive, let alone keep my vibration up when I am around her. I’m just not sure how to go about dealing with it anymore. I know that I chose this life, and I chose to incarnate on the planet during this beautiful time of transformation. But when she goes off, I automatically question every single belief I have. Am I insane? or am I just growing spiritually? If the latter is true, shouldn’t I feel less effected by the abuse? I just feel so alone on this particular subject. I don’t know anyone else who is waking up, but also lives in such a toxic environment. I know this is kind of heavy, but I just didn’t know who else to go to.

thanks so much for listening. <3

— tropezillaSorry it’s taken me so long to get back to you but if you are still going through this issue, what i suggest is that you take more time to yourself. Talk to others of like-minds other indigos, starseeds, crystals, there are so many of us out there, so you don’t have to feel so alone in the world. The issue with your mother is you have to realize she is coming from an entirely different world view than the way you have grown up. We must accept the fact that they are on a different vibration and spiritual path than you are at present. Don’t let others influence your own personal opinions about yourself and your belief system, believe me you are NOT crazy. Don’t ever let someone let you think that.

There are so many others who are struggling with the same issues as you out there. Many families are still asleep, but that’s what they chose during this lifetime, they might awaken slowly over time, it’s hard to say but we have to accept that they chose there own path and that’s something easier said then done. It’s hard i know especially when you have family members who are doubting your beliefs and how you see the world. Honestly my mom and i have very different viewpoints on life but that doesn’t stop me from loving her. You have to find that comfortable medium between spiritual and family life. believe me some people are just not there at the same vibration as you to understand or even to let their mind understand. However it doesn’t mean we have to stop loving and being there for people, I’m sure your mom probably needs you more than you think. Connect to others and I hope things have gotten better since then <3

sending love and healing light <3

Ash

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Spiritual Coach & Teacher at The Awakened State

Ashley is the founder of The Awakened State, where she helps others understand the process of Kundalini Awakening through tools, exercises & personal experience. Her mission is to guide others to discover their unlimited potential and how we can move beyond our fears to create New Empowered Paradigms. She teaches others to Dismantle Resistance,Live Beyond Fear and Start Awakening Their Inner Creator. When she’s not blogging,she’s netflixing with her man or playing with her two crazy little ones.

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