i feel so depressed, my parents wont stop talking about my thesis that need to be done soon but i have no more interest in this college thingy. they never let me do what i want to do. sometimes everything is too hard.. i just want to ascend asap.. 🙁
I’m sorry, i truly know how you feel…it’s been getting harder and harder to focus and especially to write papers. It’s like my brain will try to do everything else except write that paper, i will focus on everything else besides doing it. it’s unreal because one night i tried to focus so hard that i felt like i was two people at once, it was like my old self really wanted to write the paper and started doing it, but my subconscious was like no, what the hell are you doing? you should go look up this on the internet or bake cookies or pace around your apartment or go to the store, etc. I will even attempt to write it and then my brain will struggle, it’s like a have a strange disorder or something, just randomly out of the blue, i used to be able to write good papers and not get writers block instanteously.
I truly believe while we feel it is horrible for us, we know deep in our subconscious mind that this isn’t us learning anything anymore. I know it’s soo hard though. i don’t know what to tell you because i’m struggling right now with this too. i wish the world would just flip on it’s axis already but we have to be patient and take each day as it comes.
One thing i like to do when i’m having a bad day or i’m stuck in a situation i can’t tolerate such as class lecture. I like asking my subconsicous to reveal things to me through synchroncity patterns. it’s actually really fun, I’ve been discovering while our subconscious is getting stronger it’s easier to bring things into your awareness. So instead of just seeing the numbers everywhere, you can bring other things into your subconscious like signs or omens or listening to certain conversations that unconsciously are talking about dimensions or planes of existence. OR you can flip through a book and think of a number, your subconscious will flip directly to it or just near it depending on what book it is or you can do this with color, think of a color and you will bring it into your awareness. It may sound crazy or even a little silly but honestly it works for me everytime i get stuck in an annoying situation. For instance, i was driving with my mom and i kept seeing 777, then i saw the words ‘be strong’ and then we travelled a bit further and there was a sign that said ‘follow your heart’. There are signs and symbols ALL around us so when you have a bad day at college look for those signs, ask your subconscious to reveal them to you and it will make you feel much better as if you know this is all happening for a reason. You feel this particular way for a reason and your depression is a result from your body dissolving the ego mind from you.
I know it’s hard for you and it’s hard for a lot of starseeds right now because we ALL feel it and know what is right but we have to persevere and be strong, right now. Everything is futile but we have to acknowledge that we need to make the best of what we are doing right now so we can get there together. Don’t be depressed, the world is changing so much these days, just look at what mother Earth did yesterday if that isn’t proof of the barriers breaking i don’t know what is, we must be strong right now.
Have faith and hope, we will get through this together
as one <3
Much love <3