I was wondering if you could help me? I have had terrible anxiety lately about my future. Like towards my current relationship, the relationship with myself, and my relationships with others. I’m having trouble in trusting what fate has for me to learn. I feel as though I’m awakening but its hard to be happy when I’m more concerned with what bad things may happen than living in the now. How do I learn to trust in the universe more while having a healthy relationship with my partner and myself?
ahh this is one thing we ALL go through and my friend Carol and I like to call this “future speak”. It’s ridiculously easy to get caught in this loop. You should totally watch the video with Miss Polona it will help you give some idea as to what is going on currently. This new wave that came in with the eclipse and the alignment with the pleadians constellation really gave us a lot of new energies that we are transitioning and clearing at this time. EGO is huge lately and it’s so easy to run right back to it and find ourselves in old patterns on accident. Trust within your heart and soul that you are on the right path currently There is no destination. Stop running and realize you are here, in the present with whom you love, there is no day but today. What is the future but empty space waiting to be filled? there really is only truly the present.
We create these loops that catapult ourselves into stress, anxiety, worry, judgment, failure, and we’re all guilty of this, it’s only human that our minds run away from us. I know i do it myself, there’s that constant anxiety of not being good enough, not pretty enough, not skinny enough, not expressive enough, not enthusiastic enough, etc. etc. this could go on forever but the magic is when you stop beating yourself up and realize you are already perfect otherwise you would not be here during this divine time in history. Look at all you have learn and where you are right now, look at how you have grown to become the beautiful person that you are, forgive yourself and others of whatever happened, release, meditate on where you are truly standing in life. Ground into the earth. Really think about this. Time is illusion ultimately.
Ego that which is learned tendencies that we create it wants us to believe in all these things of dependence, fear, separation, jealousy, hate, death, worry, anger, but we HAVE to see beyond that. The shield isn’t as strong as before we all are going through this, with the new energy comes both the highness of the beautiful light rays and those of also the dark rays. The lesson here is to see the truth and see through the illusion. You are love, the divine wouldn’t want it any other way it’s so easy to bring ourselves back into the past and feel pain, suffering of what we’ve done to ourselves and others but it’s the past for a reason. It’s not today. it’s not NOW. So what are you really so worried about?
You are awakening to the truth and you see through the illusion, you must know all this pain, fear, darkness is only illusion the divine would never want us to suffer to live in separation or feel that we aren’t wanted or loved. The future is two steps away from where you are right now. It doesn’t exist. not technically, in timespace it’s there yes but is it HERE. is it right here? right now? or is it your mind creating it to exist? yes and no. but do we, our physical soul bodies do we live in the future? no. do we live in the past? We are eternal immortal in the present always. Don’t let the illusion and “future speak” get to you. Trust in the universe and have faith within yourself.
Listen within. This is the crown chakra expanding find the faith again. Never lose hope or sight of your dreams. It’s not a matter of getting to point A and point B. it’s the journey and experience it takes to get there, it’s never about the destination. It’s the flux and growth we take within ourselves each and everyday.
Whenever you feel this anxiety next time, really ask your higher self why you feel this way? Everything is a reflection of the other, from the inner world to the outer world. Don’t analysis yourself to the point where you find yourself in this endless blackhole of worry, too much time in the mind can be both a gift and a curse, come up for air sometimes. Talk to the birds or listen to the nature, that’s where the real teacher is, Trees are happy just for being, flowers are incandescently happy and squirrels quarrel and fight just to find themselves in love all over again realizing their faults are only growth and opening to the new energy around them. It’s all divine in the end. It isn’t so much a matter of thinking, we all think and believe we know. The true essence lies within feeling. it’s where it always is, thinking to the point of analysing the situation where everything feels impossible is only ego pushing itself in. Feel with your soul, your intuition and your mind.
I cannot tell you what you must do but always know to listen to your heart <3
p.s i had coffee lol sorry my responses keep getting longer