So i am growing and learning by the day with this Shadow energy, If you are riding on the high wave then go you because this energy is tough. I will be honest and say i haven’t seem more fights, anger and miscommunication since that really bad mercury retrograde in 2011! It’s pretty crazy. As i’m experiencing this with all of you i am noticing a lot of patterns that might help you along.
First this is about Love, Love of Self, Love of others Connection finding the point in yourself that connects with another. Touching people with our hearts, COMPASSION
However how do you build that love when you feel like screaming and this energy is just eating at you from the inside out?
At first i thought this was about controlling the emotions but see if we did that, that’s still suppressing them. This is about Letting go, Completely and utterly letting go. It’s very very hard to let go sometimes, oh my god i am right there too with wanting to bury things and just leave them hidden. However this is like ingesting a Truth Serum, there is no going back now, because we have already experienced these things! This is spirit trying to tell you the past is over. The hurt is over. All you are doing right now is basking in old wounds….WHY because you are not letting go.
You know the feeling of when you are sooo deeply in love, in that first honeymoon stage where it’s just like your brain chemistry is different. There haven’t been fights yet, no crazy ex girlfriends or boyfriends, no drama, you’re still getting to know eachother and you feel like you just could do anything for this person. Your thinking is effected by love even blinded by love in some cases but you just want to jump ship and dive into this endless sea of pure gushy love? That’s because your body is loaded with dopamine at this stage. It’s the same feeling you get when you are about to Orgasm. You just completely LET GO. You let go and surrender into this world of beauty, euphoria, bliss, rapture, happiness and then by the time you’re cuddling you’re still basking in that intense afterglow. Well this is what spirit is trying to tell you. Through my various mind substance experiments, Dopamine is one of the main chemicals neurotransmitters that influence Spiritual awakening and in general the spiritual world because it connects to the nervous system, hypothalamus and the pineal gland. All correlate to “feel good” chemicals that help produce this feeling of euphoria and happiness, just like you do at the point of orgasm. So not to get off subjects but this Afterglow you the body releases the hormones of oxytocin, prolactin and endorphins which in laymans terms is LOVE. pure True Love, no wonder we love sex so much lol. But anyway this Afterglow is important because it stimulates happiness, don’t you just feel on top of the world afterwards? That is because you are stimulating LOVE into you. Now here’s where the craziness comes in…
You need to find that afterglow within yourself by touching the hearts of other people.
This is not about fighting, ignoring, burying, masking and hiding…
The more disconnection you have the worse you feel, however solitude can teach you greatly about yourself. If you see your darkness you can also see your light.
This is about letting go of everything that ever hurt you by having faith in yourself and others.
Letting go and Surrendering into that point of ecstasy within yourself.
Finding the LOVE within yourself by connection.
After i kept getting into fights with Adam and now fights with my mom (sigh…she started it) i’m seeing things clearer from it. This is about arguing with the self? No because behind the ego of illusions is always boundless love. So if you feel hurt from these people, just remember this is their mirror, they are talking through you by not listening to the heart. We all have to let go of this because it already happened!!! Stop, please stop beating yourself up about things, you are full of love, you are worth it, it’s not worth giving up, it’s not worth hurting yourself or others, it’s not worth it because let me tell you, You are not alone, you were never alone to begin with, your mother gave birth to you and your parents formed a connected with you through love, then you formed a connection of love with your friends and boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife, your children, your future children, your past friends, your past relationships, your pets/animals strangers even you ALL did this through connection through love. Whether it hurt, may you curse the world, had you on your knees bleeding and screaming, hate everyone, hate yourself, etc. you still came up for air eventually didn’t you. Gaia does NOT want us to suffer, there will be happiness, there will be endless love and there will be truth for those who can see beyond the illusions of the abyss of our Shadows.
So i truly believe it’s very important during this time to connect, even if it’s just for 5 minutes of your day. I went to college i know what’s it like to walk through hallways and not speak to anyone all day go home and ignore the world or hate the world. It doesn’t matter. Connect with people, whether it’s your friend, your roommate, your lover, your family, even by hugging your dog or cat. This is a HUGE heart chakra, merkaba, empathy awakening. I promise you the only way we’re going to get through this energy is by connecting at the heart. It’s as simple as that.
We cannot do this alone, we all need eachother.
I care and I love you too <3