oh dear. now it all makes sense. i was feeling the same way. like nothing was actually happening and everything that i learned was gone. emotional rollercoaster, anxiety, i even acted like an egoistic bitch on the night of 12/21 and didnt understand myself.
but last night something happened. it was like i was thrown back to all my thoughts of fear of death, everything not making sense. i lay in my bed thinking: ok, go through this again, think of what you learned. and then i imagined myself as a part of the universe, like i was a cell of a body. i thought about all of us being one. first it was very scary because if there is just one – we are alone. i felt so so lonely in this vast world. but then i realized that all of this are “human thoughts”, that this is my ego, that being this universe must actually be beautiful if i was free of my human thinking patterns. and then i felt a huge pressure on my head.
i turned on the tv because i felt like i had to realx my mind with some stupid things after all this – the first word was “karma”, i switched channels and there was a guy explaining the origin of life and that every atom that we are made of comes from the stars -. the most massive synchonicity i have ever experienced.
i woke up to see 11:11 this morning.
it’s all happening.
again: thank you for sharing. i hope you have a wonderful christmas day.
“its just a matter of where and when we collectively decided
the world is not a vicious place
its just the way we’ve been raised
discovering time and space
I know that we can make a change
rearrange the way that we appreciate the world today”
thank you for sharing your own experience, this is beautiful <3
Exactly the more i dug deeper into my subconscious ego fears all the way to the point of fear of death and beyond that you go full circle. The synchroncity has been nonstop insane, it’s hard to get used to because it’s everything, it links with your thoughts now. This means manifesting is going to get mega easier! i’m excited, life is so magickal right now. It’s like discovering you are the imagination and dream version of all you used to envy, this IS you in totality. This is the real you connected infinitely within the entire multiverse connected to every living soul at the heart of the Mother Earth.
It’s only going to get better from here, peace and love to you on your journey ahead <3