Hey, I was hoping you could help me with something I’ve been going through. I’m going to try and explain.
I have bad days and I have good days. On the good days, I am happy. I feel one with the Universe and guided by joy and light. I smile freely. I feel like reaching a hand out to others. My mind is clear and everything sort of “clicks.” On the bad days, things are at rock bottom. 🙁 I feel disconnected, I can’t concentrate on anything, and I often feel disappointed in myself. Sometimes it gets really, really bad.
I meditate almost every day and that has helped me a lot. The problem is that I feel like I’m stuck to a cycle that’s out of my control! I have a few good days, then I’m at rock bottom for another few days all over again! After I get out of all the negativity, often by reading a book or meditating, the cycle repeats again. It feels like I’m on an energy roller coaster.
Yesterday, I was having a ‘bad day’ and tried to help bring more light into it through meditation. And yet, when my mind was clear, all I wanted to do was cry. Later, as I was sending light energy to each of my chakras, everything was going fine until the light reached my heart chakra. As soon as it did, I felt like bursting into tears all over again.
I don’t know how to stop the negativity I keep falling into! I feel like it’s out of my control. Please help. 🙁
We ALL have these days, i know some days it can be really tough. lately especially for some reason it’s not been easy on my side of the pond either but we carry on. The amazing thing about life is it’s all about the polarity balance. We channel the darkness to get to the light.
While some days can feel like magic and are absolutely blissful, we also have the days where we feel low and deep into negativity.
Right now we’re awakening our hearts like never before, our heart chakras are expanding to unify with the earth. A lot of people including myself are having heart palpitations and chest pain returning symptoms. We must remember that during these hard times they are still lessons all the same. I like to say they’re just merely tests from the universe because what’s amazing is after those hard times what usually comes back is this extensive knowledge bomb of realizing everything is perfect afterall. We have these negative feelings but within our hearts we know where true reality lies. it is soo good that you’re guiding the light towards your chakras and meditating through this, keep doing it. Crying is a release, this is a strong time of letting go so we can embrace the love that we are and always will be forever. Know that you are always loved and you are love.
The battle of the mind vs the heart is growing stronger by the day, this is ultimately a fight of the ego of the past old energy creeping in vs the new unified heart trying to take over in it’s place. We are giving out energy more from the heart than we ever were before and it’s starting to show in reality. We are breaking the structures of the old energy to gift ourselves with the new. This is a classic ‘getting rid of the old to get ready for the new’. Try to stay in the positive as much as you can for it is your reality and your mind. I can only give you the canvas but you have to paint the world how you see it.
I hope things get better for you honey
much healing light <3