I experienced something i haven’t in a LONG time, Jealousy. It was just over a simple fb conversation i accidentally over read but it got me to questioning myself again. Why do i feel like i’m back to my old self and old ways/patterns? It seems like this retrograde is all about vulnerability and our emotional body at least on my end it seems this way. I feel as if time has stopped and i’m presented with past emotional memories i thought i was over but they have started surfacing again. It reminds me of how the winter retrograde was all about confronting our shadow self, our ego, our unconscious, maybe this retrograde is all about confronting our emotional self, our heart center, our inner most spirit?
I’m usually the type of person that DOESNT get jealous so this really threw me for a loop, it lead me to question my own personal faults and how i could of handled things a bit better considering it was all pretty delusional on my part. But it also lead me to question the objective of letting go. I know jealousy stems from attachment and this has to deal with letting go of past emotions of mine not to mention trust/faith. However it lead me to try to see it from a grander scale too, why do we let our emotions overrun us?
Opening the heart is about vulnerability but it’s also about trust, faith, honesty, unconditional love. It’s about accepting yourself in totality with your faults and with your skills. It’s as if this energy is saying there is no escape anymore, you are presented with these emotions and can’t run from them anymore, you have to FACE YOURSELF. facing your emotional self is not always the easiest thing because it’s more than facing your mirror, it’s facing your inner most deep feelings of your self past and present. Our vulnerability, our humility, our most uncomfortable, unsettling thoughts that hold us back or make us shiver.
So i thought this would inspire an interesting discussion on emotions and empathy. How do you cope with emotions? Do you let yourself be raw or do you hide, what about with others are you real or do you mask yourself? what powers your emotions, how you see yourself or how you act? What is the basis of least resistance, why do we fight ourselves sometimes when it comes to an act of love or vulnerability? Why does society not let us be in touch with ourselves, What is holding us back from creating that opening? What do you need to let go, why do emotions hold us back?
It’s about Surrender. Surrendering into ourselves
Awakening the kundalini fire
Opening our hearts to others through Empathy
Accepting ourselves and our Emotions through and through
but mostly it’s a deeply raw and vulnerable confrontation with yourself.
Emotions don’t make us weak, they make us strong,
they make us REAL. They make us human.
If i am nothing but what my eyes see through,
You are still another me
with a heart, with a story, with a song