This is a what if situation. What if my plans for my future don’t turn out the way I want them to. For instance, my dream job, a wife, a family, happiness. What if any of that does not happen. What if I die unexpectedly. I know everything doesn’t happen the way we planned. But what if I don’t have a wife and family in my future and just die alone. What was the purpose of my existence if all I did was fail. I do everything in my power to keep that from happening. Don’t care about wealth
You have a terrible case of future speak 😛
When we have a fear of failure we are thinking too much in future, which produces anxiety and deep fear of success. You want to feel in the present to not dislodge your thinking. When our thoughts move too much into future they become ungrounded with our present awareness of ourselves. You write a lot of what ifs but you also are telling me everyone’s dream. I think it comes down to faith honestly. I mean if i were to put myself in your shoes, i could die tomorrow but i know it will still be my purpose and time and i will continue carrying on into my next life where i will find my soulmate again because i am infinite. “If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them. Buildings burn, people die, but real love is forever.” I don’t have a problem with death because i know deep down that it is only illusion a door, i will still love the people in my life because they will always be known to me within my heart.
So yes i think it comes down to faith, i mean isn’t that what you do when you fall in love anyway? I think life itself is a leap of faith, we could die tomorrow or we could live a million lifetimes. I bet the movie Cloud Atlas would really help you find an answer to this question you are seeking…
For me it just comes down to faith, you have to faith in people, in yourself in your reality and you have to believe in infinity otherwise everything will just depress you and put you into boxes. Faith opens the door, it is the key. Future is merely another gateway into the realm of endless thoughts but faith is feeling and it is peace. It is heaven and salvation. You are infinite, so why are you worried, you only have eternity to succeed!
“My life amounts to no more than one drop in a limitless ocean. Yet what is any ocean, but a multitude of drops?” ~ David Mitchell, Cloud Atlas